When the cancellations first started, the homebody in me didn’t mind too much. I’ve been saying to Jeff for months that I wish I could just press the pause button and suspend all of the activities and busyness for a little while. Well, this wasn’t exactly what I had in mind! My oldest son, Marshall, expressed it well last night. He said something the effect of, “I was pretty excited when school was canceled for a couple of weeks, but now it’s not so great. I miss being able to see my friends and climb at the gym.” And I know what he’s saying. I wish I could pick and choose what was canceled or closed and keep my favorite things.
Life for me feels pretty normal. My work is done from home and primarily online, so I’m used to being home a lot and connecting with my team and customers/followers/clients on the phone, video conferences, and through writing. So, the biggest change for me is having everyone else home and nowhere to go.
That means I’m interrupted more when I’m trying to get things done. It means that I’ve had to surrender my office and work solely from my studio, so Jeff has a place to set up shop. It means that the kitchen is open all day, the dishes pile up, and there is a little more mess to clean up at the end of each day. It means just a little more bickering from two boys who are ready for more variety in their company.
But it also means we’re not rushing off to the next thing on our schedule. We have the time to cook dinners together and sit around the table to eat. It means we’re playing games and going on family walks together to get some exercise and fresh air. And even though fear about the uncertain future and the virus itself sometimes bubbles up, especially if I read too much news, I am so thankful for this time.
I’m thankful for the lessons we’re all learning about pulling together as a family.
I’m thankful for the evenings at home, sitting around the table, laughing and playing games.
I’m thankful for the desire to waste less and produce more.
I’m thankful that we have a home that feels like a sanctuary at a time when it needs to be exactly that.
I’m thankful that the rhythm of caring for our animals gives us a sense of normalcy along with an excuse to go outside regularly and be still so a cat can settle on our lap.
I’m thankful for all of the technology that keeps us connected with family and friends and our church body.
I’m thankful that we’ve been able to get everything we need, especially the insulin and supplies to care for Calvin.
I’m thankful for a deeper appreciation of little things, like cake flour being in stock and the varying colors of fresh local eggs.
I’m thankful for hobbies to keep my mind and hands busy.
I’m thankful that we can still enjoy sunshine and fresh air.
I’m thankful for family walks and a warmer-than-usual Minnesota spring.
I’m thankful for friends who have sent texts to check-in.
I’m thankful that we saved and planned for emergencies and tough times.
I’m thankful that this won’t last forever.
It’s only a season.
And I hope that I come out the other side of all of this retaining these feelings of gratitude.
I hope I’m content with less and see value in more.
I hope I bake a loaf of banana bread, so I don’t waste browning bananas and don’t worry so much about the calories.
I hope I always thank the person who checks me out at the grocery store for being there that day.
I hope I count every egg as precious.
What are you thankful for?