I’m going to take a deep breath and own up to something. Since starting this blog, and mostly since my business has really taken off, I have gained 30 lbs. (It hurts just to write that.) A year ago, I had to have my gallbladder removed and it was a wake up call to me. Well, I hit the snooze button a few times, but last summer, I started making changes. I wrote THIS POST about the limits I was going to set for myself dealing with food, health, my business, etc. and I thought I would give an update.
So, here I was pre-blog… It’s hard to see in a frumpy t-shirt, but I had lost 38lbs after having my second son and was only about 10lbs heavier than when I was in college. I was running every day and at a very healthy BMI and I felt awesome.
Here I am 3o lbs heavier. Again, it’s hard to tell with the layers, but those 30 lbs were there and they were really hard to handle when I was trying to find the perfect outfit to wear on the Nate Berkus Show.
So, in August, there was total upheaval. I gave/threw away most of what was in my pantry and fridge. Anything with MSG, corn syrup, partially hydrogenated oils and anything I couldn’t pronounce was outta there. Grocery store trips took me an eternity as I flipped over everything to read the label. This meant giving up the thing that has been my “one thing” since I was 16 years old. Diet soda. I always said, “It’s my one thing and I’m not giving it up.” Well, I finally decided to give it up. I’m not saying it’s bad, but I couldn’t make a case that it was good for me. I went from drinking 2-3/day to one and then none. I felt terrible and craved them intensely for about two weeks, but then it got easier. I had no idea how addicted I was to them! I haven’t had a sip of diet soda since and I don’t want to. I don’t view it as a treat or as an occasional thing. I view it as a slippery slope if I take one sip, so I don’t even mess with it.
I also became a vegetarian. This was easier for me, believe it or not. I’ve never been a big meat eater anyway. What was awesome, too, is that my husband went semi-vegetarian with me, so we eat vegetarian at home and he has gotten used to it. He gets meat when we go out or sometimes buys some salmon or something for himself. Being a vegetarian has limited a lot of unhealthy options like fast food, rich casseroles, etc. and has made me get creative with the way I fuel my body. Since making that change, I’ve lost 6 lbs.
I know. That’s not much. Especially over seven months. I felt it was important, though, to establish a healthy eating pattern…to totally change my tastes and cravings, so that when I started to focus more on weight loss, it was very natural. And it’s worked. I would rather pack a veggie wrap and nuts than stop in fast food place. I can’t handle candy that I used to like, like peanut butter cups and even my precious chocolate covered raisins. They are just too sweet and taste really fake to me. Oh, I can still put away a good homemade brownie or something like that, though!
So, this is the kind of stuff I crave and eat…
…raw veggies with hummus, sliced cheese…
…a bunless black bean burger with avocado and baby romaine…
…and stir fried veggies with cashews, brown rice and quinoa. Of course, I still have my guilty pleasures like all-natural kettle-cooked potato chips, Izze Clementine soda and Ghirardelli 60% cacao dark chocolate chips. So, now that I’m eating the right kinds of foods, I’m tightening up a bit to focus on weight loss. I’m also adding a workout routine.
I’ve done this in the past. I go to the gym for a few weeks and then I get busy and stop. One problem is that I’m just picking this class or that class to go to and I’m not very purposeful about it. I used to be a major gym rat, so I know how to train, but I need someone to push me and I need a plan. I looked around for something I could do at home and settled on the P90X Video Workout. I just started this week and it is pretty brutal, but I like that kind of punishing workout. It’s about an hour a day six days a week for 90 days. So, I’m committing to do it for 90 days and we’ll see what happens.
I bought a comfy new pair of tennis shoes and I’m ready to go. I’ll only take a day off if I’m really sick, traveling and the two days of the Lucketts Fair in May (those are workout enough!) Otherwise…no excuses,
This isn’t going to be a main topic on my blog, but it’s a big thing going on in my life, so I wanted to share it. I am also positive that I have a lot of readers who struggle with weight and it’s always nice to talk about common struggles. I was initially thinking it would be my own secret makeover project and I would just show you in the end, but I kept finding myself wanting to talk about it. I’m hoping some of you wonderful ladies can cheer me on and hold me accountable. Hopefully I’ll be showing some lean, muscular pictures of myself in 90 days…maybe 180 since I expect I’ll have to do the program twice to get where I want to be. I’m just going to give it all I’ve got and we’ll see what happens.
As far as the other limits I set in August…well, I’ve been stinking it up with going to bed at a reasonable hour and I’m going to get back to that. I’ve asked for a snazzy bracelet for my birthday that tracks and records your sleep patterns and I think that will help. It means I might neglect my Facebook page more than I already do or I’lll be a bit slower at responding to e-mails, but I know that years from now, I’ll be glad I took care of myself. I can never imagine my future-self being glad I stayed up until midnight or 1:00 regularly and was exhausted and stressed all to answer some e-mail and hang out on Pinterest.
I have been better at saying no, but that I-can-say-yes-to-everything-and-it-will-all-work-out side of my personality has been rearing its head again and I need to tighten up. I just need to have another pep talk with myself about it and give myself permission to disappoint people who want something from me that I can’t give 100% to. That’s hard…
So, here’s to limits and balance! (I’m raising my Izze…don’t leave me hanging.)
I’ll give you updates here and there to let you know how things are coming along. Have a great Easter weekend.