Today I was working on a chapter in my book about contentment and it was a bit of a wake up call for me. I always felt like writing a book, a for-real published and sold in bookstores book, wasn’t really an attainable goal, but here I am doing it. It’s something God brought to me as a tremendous blessing and a way for me to share His love with others through my love of all things home. It’s an honor and a dream come true. As I’ve been working intensely on the writing, though, I’ve had to neglect my blog. As I’ve watched my numbers slip and my ranking fall, I found myself a little down about it. I’m now realizing that those numbers have been way too important to me. My worth isn’t found in my blog ranking or the number of hits I get. Worrying about those things is only going to rob me of the joy and gratitude I feel about this opportunity. It’s also incredibly ungrateful. It’s like I’m saying, “Thanks, God, for the book deal, but I want a pony too and then I’ll be happy.” Ugh. Do you ever just disgust yourself?
As I was writing, I was focused on being an encouragement to those who eventually read the book, but this evening God used it to speak to me. “Be content with where I have you.” It makes me so sad that I have to be reminded of that in this wonderful season of my life. It points out the wickedness and sinful nature of my own heart.
Ouch.
…but His mercies are new every morning and I’m so thankful for that. I’m thankful for the truths God showed me about myself today. It’s hard for me to share, but I wanted to be transparent and honest. (My heart always pounds when I write posts like this…)
Do you struggle with contentment or am I all by my lonesome, here?
OK, so here’s what the hydrangeas are about…
I bought them to use in some photo shoots for my book and I snapped a couple of pictures of them yesterday. I’m glad I did, because today they were totally wilted. Big bummer. So, they won’t make it in the book, but I do get to share them here today.
Mini is so sweet to me that in addition to caring for my boys today, she steam cleaned my family room carpet. I’ve been putting it off because I’m really looking forward to installing hardwood floors, but it was starting to look like a leopard print and it was time to deal with it. Plus the hardwood floors are probably still a few months out. Thank you, Mini. I don’t know how I could manage without you!
(I put a water mark on this picture because I know everyone is going to want to pin it.)
I think I’m going to put a big thank you giveaway together… You’ve all been so encouraging to me during this whirlwind and I appreciate it more than you know!
hi Marian
you do so know that all your followers and numbers will come flooding back when you are ready to do your blog again, you really don’t need to worry about that.
check out Sarah’s blog for Hydrangea care tips.
http://www.abeachcottage.com/2012/02/beach-cottage-flowers-six-ways-to-hydrangea-care.html
have a wonderful day and know that it’s all going to be ok for you!
cheers Fiona
Oh noooooo… You do NOT have a wicked heart! So that’s that! Now, as far as hydrangeas… i’ve heard that they lose alot of moisture through their petals, and sometimes when they do that crazy wilt thing, you can put their little heads right in the water for a little while, and they’ll soak it in, and perk right up… Don’t know if that’s true… but sure worth a try!
Cindy
I always soak my hydrangeas when they start to wilt. I make a fresh cut and soak them in the sink for an hour or so. I don’t know if this is the “proper” way to treat them, but it works for me.
Gosh it must be one of those days…because I was feeling exactly this way this morning. I expressed it to my husband, and he put it in such a different perspective for me. It’s hard, and I can only imagine your feelings. I am no where near your blogging status and you see even the best of the best have days like this. Your book is going to be amazing, so when that day comes when it is published and it is flying off the shelves…remember this day too…Best wishes to you!
To be content where you are is a daily struggle. It helps to remember that his mercies are new every morning. “One Thousand Gifts” by Ann Voskamp is another excellent reminder to be thankful for each days gifts.
I am reading this book right now.
I am reading it because, I too, struggle with contentment in the moments of my life. I can so relate to Marian’s thought on this topic. In fact, I loved the way you wrote this so much that I know I’ll be buying your book. I like to see your faith out there on the table like this. It is an instant connection, I am new to your blog and will be looking around to see more ideas.
Thank you for sharing your thoughts. It is nice to know we are alone in our struggles.
Leopard print..okay you made me laugh! and then watermarking the photo…hahaha!
Rebekah
Good Evening Marian,
I totally understand your feelings and hope that you can begin to just go with this and not worry about readers..followers..or unimportant numbers. Any who have left and don’t return after the book were never true friends after all. We who admire you are not bored so easily..we understand where you are in your life and will be patient. Get the book written and return to your blog when you are ready and only you know when that is.
Keep writing my friend
Janet xox
The Empty Nest
Thank God His mercies are new every morning. He is so good! Love to check in on your blog frequently and can’t wait for the book.
wickedness and sinfulness? sounds sort of harsh. Its not like you robbed some senior citizens out of their life savings. You got a bit “focused” on one piece of the picture. if you weren’t the type to get “focused” you wouldnt be as good as you are at perservering. imho.
A very beautiful and honest post. Thank you for sharing and you are not alone. I stuggle with contentment too. As always, sending warm thoughts your way.
I’m totally with you. I feel discontent all the time, no matter how much I tell myself not to. I feel that way about my blog, even though it’s pretty new (less than 6 months old). About my job, the fact that we rent & I feel like we can’t start “life” until my husband’s medical residency is over. How we can’t have kids ’till then either. I’m tend to be surprised when I find out that other bloggers who have houses & kids & seem so put together are the same age as I am. I feel behind on life a LOT. I try to remember that good things are happening to me too, and that I’m on MY timeline, not everyone else’s… sometimes it helps.
I wish we could share a big hug! We lived in my in-laws basement for two years while my husband worked on his degree and waited 8 years before having kids. I totally felt like life was “on hold.” Yes, you’re on YOUR timeline and it’s perfect for YOU. Enjoy it!
add “God-send” to your resume. i needed to read this. my husband lost his job of 31 years and i felt my dreams of a late-in-life empty nest career heading towards what looked very much like a sucking drain.
somehow i get the feeling it’s going to be holy ground.
“Be content with where I have you.”
xo
Oh, I hope your path becomes clear. It’s always hard when a rug gets pulled out from under you. It’s nice to know we’re in good hands, though and His ways are higher than ours.
Like Deborah, my husband lost his 30 yr. job in ’07; much of life since then has felt like a wild roller coaster ride. I could/can only breathe with ease when my eyes have been focused on the Lord Jesus~my Savior, heavenly Father, provider, and comforter. Currently a Bible study group I’m part of is moving through Anne Graham Lotz’s Expecting to see Jesus, A Wake-Up Call for God’s People. While I’m learning to be content with our life, I am also seeing and learning that God uses personal storms in our lives to wake us and get us moving~many yet need to hear the message of God’s saving grace through His only Son sacrificed on our behalf, so we have opportunity once again to be in fellowship with our loving heavenly Father. Having said that, my prayer for you is for extra strength right now and God’s blessing overflowing on you and yours~the Lord bless you and keep you, make His face to shine on you, Marian. hugs from OH~Susan
Being content where I am is probably one of my biggest challenges. “Live in the moment” should be a sign in every room of my house. Thank you for your lovely, heartfelt post. I’m not going anywhere and I’m sure all your bloggers feel the same. Work on your book; I can’t wait to buy a copy.
We all need the reminder to be content in our circumstances, thanks for that. I struggle with it as well. And as painful as it is to have these times of enlightenment about ourselves, it is how we grow in faith!
On another note, I hope that the rest of the book goes smoothly. I’m sure it will be wonderful! And your faithful readers will be here with you through it all!
On a final note, those hydrangeas are gorgeous! I wish I had your eye for style, you’re an inspiration!
I’m in the same boat! Well, not the “I am a super amazing blogger and author” boat, but the “wicked heart” boat. It made me thankful to hear your testimony of his convictions… just as he has been convicting me! Keep at it! “Create in me a clean heart!”
And happy writing! I’ll pray for you!
LOL…you cracked me up. I’m in the wicked heart boat with good company. Thanks.
I just wrote a post about this the other day. My life is by no means perfect, but I feel content. I had an aha! moment. Here is an excerpt:
My life had always gone something like this: When I am skinnier, when I am in shape, when I have more money, when I have more time, etc. I will do _______________. I had a serious light bulb moment since starting this blog. What if this is it?! What if this is the skinniest I will ever be? What if this is the best shape I will ever be in? What if this is the most money I will ever have? What if this is all the extra time I will ever have? Then what? Then I will never get to be authentic me. I will never follow my passions, accomplish my goals, dream big and live the life I was meant to live, because I am still waiting for someday.
The rest of the post is here http://www.balancinghome.com/2012/02/waiting-for-someday.html
We have all been there! This past week my blog numbers were half of what they were a month ago. I am not going to lie. It hurt a little. I had to remind myself of the lovely loyal readers I have gained. Quality over quantity, right? I just have to trust that if I keep being me and doing my thing the best I know how the rest will follow. My blog is only 6 months old, so lots to learn. Congrats on the book! That is on the life list for me.
What a wonderful post! I love what your mom said about don’t wish your day away. I’m definitely a “wisher!” Thanks so much for sharing.
(By the way, your blog header is really cool!)
I’ve learned many things as I have grown older…the most important thing by far is that we, as women, can’t do it all. No matter how hard we try. Accepting that is sometimes difficult because we so WANT to do it all. Take a deep breath. Relax. Don’t worry about your blog. We will all be here when you are finished with the book…waiting patiently.
oh boy….i’m guessing you have alot of company, including me, in feeling this way. But you “discover it” on your own…and adjust. That is far ahead of me. Peace of mind and contentment are priceless–i will keep striving for it and i thank you for reminding me
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You know, I initially started reading your blog because of your decorating and furniture painting tips. But what has kept me reading it every day is your God-filled spirit and your faith. I love that part of your blog as much as I do the decorating stuff. Please remember you are only human. None of us is perfect.
I know exactly what you mean.
Some days- God just smacks me upside the head with MYSELF!
My verse for the day is
Be still and know that I am God: I will be exalted among the heathen I will be exalted among the earth. Ps. 46:10
This verse reminds me to TRUST (be content) (have a right heart ATTITUDE) …AND! it reminds me that even if I DON’T… He will be exalted. Because He is Sovereign.
Loved this post. Love your newly steamed cleaned and watermarked (at the same time) carpet… And like the Hydrangeas… we too will fade. (and our blog numbers won’t EVEN matter!) LOL…
keep your spiritual chin up girl.
In Christ- Pat
Don’t worry so much about the numbers. I feel fortunate to have found your blog as I am so sure many of your loyal fans are every day. You are so incrediably “giving” to us every day. I too lay in bed sometimes and say I should be more content with what I can accomplish and have and yet sometimes I just don’t seem to be at all. I am thinking that is being human.
You’ve got a great blog and SO appreciate your openness and care and love of God. I’ll be checking back again and again!
Wow. sadly I am with ya all the time on the not being content it is something I pray about all the time. What a huge blessing your book is going to be and even if your blog numbers fall you are still my all time favorite and go to blog and I know I am not the only one who feels this way! Keep up the great work.
Let’s make a deal…I will PIN your carpet…if you will PIN mine:)
Blessings,
Linda
In so many ways you’re a trailblazer. You’ve probably inspired more than you know. And this post will be no different. Thank you for your transparency! Thank you for showing us how to prosper and grow with humility and dependency. You’re showing us that the fear of God is more important than the fear of man. Bless you!!
God has been speaking to me a lot about contentment lately too. You know when He just keeps hitting you with it?! It was the topic of my women’s book club chapter, then the next week’s talk at MOPS, etc. Just keeps coming up! Funny enough, I too have a dream of being published someday, but question whether it is realistic. He has been showing me that I just need to write when something is on my heart and not worry about how it will be used someday, so that is where I am at. I write a little blog called “Don’t Sweat the Small Stuff” that I use to supplement a women’s perfectionism/anxiety group I lead at our church. Sometimes what I have to write applies there, and other times I just write in a journal. Next month I have a piece being printed in our MOPS newsletter. Baby steps, right?! Also ironic, I have the phrase “Your mercies are new every morning” written on the chalkboard in my kitchen right now! See, you’re not alone!
I am sooooo excited for you that this dream is coming true for you! I can’t wait to buy my copy of the book!
Being unemployed for over a year I can completely relate to your post. As I struggle with this part of my journey, I constanly find myself asking for him to quiet my discontented heart.
Each day is an opportunity to start anew.
You are among friends here.
If there is one thing I know for sure (and the Bible reminds me every time I read it) is that we are never alone, someone is always thinking or feeling what we are! Just last night I was watching the new Oprah show and she was interviewing Hasidic Jews, they basically live very simply, but the women can not show their hair so alot of them wear wigs. Well one of the ladies was saying that she lived with a very badly made, cheap wig for years and always dreamed of a day when they could afford a better wig, that day finally came and then she began to think what else could she obtain or afford now that they are better off, it’s that contentment monster, as she put it if we look for things outside of us to make us happy nothing will ever be enough. Simple to understand, just not always simple to do or remember. Thankfully we have a God that doesn’t ever give up on us!
Wow!! This is perfect for me too. I’m in a time in my life where I need to learn to be content!
I pray for it every day.
The scripture says…”Not that I speak in respect of want: for I have learned, in whatsoever state I am, therewith to be content. ~ Philippians 4:11″
I love the bible, and I’m so thankful God puts little seeds in our hearts and minds to be able to ponder and reason with ourselves… All of this material things aren’t going to amount to much when we get to heaven…even though they sure are loads of fun {most of the time!!!}
Thank you so much for letting God use to you to be such an inspiration in your work, and for the things that really matter!!
Hoping and Praying for God’s will
Have a blast with your book! I can’t wait to order my copy!
Much bloggy love,
Jessica
I love the way God speaks to us! Thank you for being open and sharing that lesson you are learning. You are definitely not all by your lonesome on this one, I am right there with you sister! I often struggle with it and don’t even realize it! Sometimes we get so caught up in wanting more than we have already been blessed with. You are doing a wonderful job, and you are teaching so many mothers and women about balance and doing what they love. Best of luck with the book!
Also here is a blog post I recently read that’s all about caring for hydrangeas
Hope it helps
http://www.abeachcottage.com/2012/02/beach-cottage-flowers-six-ways-to-hydrangea-care.html
Darling Marian,
Your heart is precious. God is drawn to you by your very need of Him. I KNOW that YOU know this, but, kiddo to put yourself down like that is to agree with the evil one who lives to accuse us. Jesus is not only our defense attorney, judge, but He also pays the fine! How gracious is this precious God we love.
You are a gift to the Body of Christ, as well as your darling man club.
God bless you with so many wonderful opportunities that your precious heart will sing!
peggy
ha! this is why I stick with my broken-down blackberry camera — at least nobody wants to steal my pictures. lol
Your ranking really falls from just a little neglect? wow. That’s kindof an eye opener. you really do have to blog just for the fun of it and not get wrapped up in those numbers because what if you (heaven forbid) got sick for a while and the blog fell apart? It’s always good to remember where your real worth and happiness comes from, for sure.
I’m thinking about pinning that picture just to mess with you…..
LOL…don’t you dare.
Contentment is a repeated lesson in my life it seems. It is something my heart continues to trip over periodically. One thing that God has put on my mind is to treasure the things that are eternal. If I really do that, then the temporary things (over which I am discontent) fade in importance by comparison. There is a really helpful post on contentment here (sorry, I don’t know how to make it a link):
http://www.theologyforwomen.org/2012/01/godliness-with-contentment.html
Blessings as you continue on with your book. I know we’ll all enjoy it immensely!
No, you are definitely not alone. I just posted something very similar to your thoughts on my blog last week. And, yes, I disgust myself sometimes too!
God is so good, though.
Very important lesson that all of us struggle with from time to time! I just recntly discovered your blog and I thoroughly enjoy it. Congrats on your book deal! Traci
Your post really rang true to me..Be content in God’s plan and true happiness and joy will always find you..God has a plan for us all..All we need to do is be still and listen..You have an eye for detail and your re-dos are awesome..Your color choices are stunning and you just seem to be a truly genuine person..Wishing you all the best on your book..
I am right there with you! My word of the year was “Contentment!”
i know how you feel.
my daughter and i just had this conversation today.
“Godliness with contentment is great gain.”
i needed that reminder.
xoxo
{your watermark comment made me giggle!}
I cannot wait to read your book! And I need the pep talk on contentment. I’m still struggling with what to do with this blog switch to wordpress and I ended up so frustrated today I threw a book across the room. Time to step back again and let God lead me where this is supposed to go! Thanks for the reminder:)
I’m preaching to the choir here because you are a much more seasoned blogger than I am, but I wanted to say that I think this happens to many bloggers. My numbers dropped during the first trimester of my pregnancy. I was still posting every weekday but the quantity and intensity of my projects went way down thanks to the fatigue and my stats reflected that. I needed that time to rest, though, and now that I’m 20 weeks along I’ve pretty much gotten my blogging groove back. I do think it’s sad that blogging is such a hungry hobby…there’s no taking a break or slowing down without facing the consequences. You’re following your dream, though, and the blog will still be there when the book is finished!
It’s really the battle between ego and Spirit, and it’s the biggest one we all have. Every day. Bummed a little there’s fewer posts but you’ll always be my go to blog. I just keep checking back. Don’t worry, the diehards are a patient lot!
Loved this post, God has shown me the exact same thing…love your flowers too so pretty…can’t wait too see the book.
As a mother-in-waiting (waiting for the hubs to at least be ALMOST done with school), renting a little place, and watching my friends start families and paint cabinetry, I sometimes stomp my foot and think, ” When is my turn!?” Thankfully, God is so gracious to me and accepts and works in me as I am. As I am. When I start to think about all I have to be grateful for, all the other stuff fades away! In fact, I’m so exited about what God is doing in my heart (and others around me) about being content with what we have and learning to be generous with it, that I’m working on a little e-book. Who knows if I’ll actually ever finish it, but people like you are the inspiration to keep writing and see how seeds of dreams can grow into such beautiful things!
You continue running the race God has set before you…..no one elses. We are a fickle breed……don’t count on us for your worth or validation. Keep pressing into Him and who you are in Him.
You are such an inspiration to me. I, too,
have struggled with finding peace in the moment,
and it’s so encouraging to hear I’m not alone.
“Be careful what you pray for,” because God
inevitably comes thru in flying colors,giving
us plenty of time and opportunity to practice
and perfect what He created us for.
your blog is always a first to look at,kind of like checking in on a old freind to see how their day has been. You give inspirations in many ways and that is your true talent…so keep typing,painting and crafting your hands touch many more then you may know
sometimes being content w/what we have is all we have in the physical world……but dreams carry us forward and God carries us always……much success and my favorite song when i’m feeling sad, lonely, alone…..any negative emotion b/c we all have them.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mN8oN8I3lrk
This lesson on contentment is priceless….God does want this for me, for each of us.
I guess its all in perspective if this is your numbers dropping…I’ll take them!
Your right, we need to look @ the big journey….I am so thankful where God has me now…and I am
so Thankful for each blessing…I will be looking forward to all the inspiration for home & heart in your book!
Thanks for sharing and your honesty!
hmmm, I am just wondering about those of us who may read you on our google reader—-I wonder if it relays those readers to you….or just the ones that click on it and come to your website? I am just wondering?
As I understand it, only the people who click on the blog “count” towards my statistics. I’ve always felt, though, that I want people to read my blog however they want. If they subscribe and never click on anything, that’s totally ok with me.
Well, there you go, there are probably a ton of people that read it in google reader. This is how I read most of my blogs I subscribe to–I only click if I want to comment and for blogs like yours that receive lots of comments I usually don’t go to their site! AH well—just remember you have a lot of readers that are not showing up on your count!
You are so not alone out there! You keep on going, we’ll be here when you finish. We’re all little pilgrims on journeys here. We each face our crossroads and travel new paths. Enjoy each moment of each opportunity! It’s God’s gift to you!
I struggle with contentment! And compared to most of the world I should never complain..but I do! I want to be able to say “I have learned to be content no matter the circumstances!”
The hydrangea pics are awesome!
Thanks for your honesty, Marian. No matter how much we have, we still long for more. I guess that’s why Paul had to LEARN to be content in every situation.
I’ve been thankful though to learn that discontentment isn’t only bad, it’s also a tangible reminder that this world is not my true home…I love the C.S. Lewis quote which says,” If I find in myself desires which nothing in this world can satisfy, the only logical explanation is that I was made for another.” C.S. Lewis. Be encouraged, dear. Grace covers it all.
I believe contentment is a very difficult place to get to. Our society makes it very hard with so much focus on material “stuff”. I am mostly content but sometimes I stray. Thanks for a enlightening post!
Marian,
Your blog is the first one I check every evening during my precious down-time. I look forward to each new post and love looking back at prior posts. We are actually driving through your area from NY to Florida for vacation and I BEGGED my hubby to take a little side trip to Lucketts. When he asked why all I had to say was Miss Mustard Seed and the convincing was done!
Thank you for sharing your amazing journey with us!
I am so glad you shared this because I think you validate what so many very grateful and Godly women feel as well. I try so hard to put gratitude at the forefront of each day, but when something starts to slip, I notice I start to focus more on the “less” and not as much on the “more”. I believe we are all humans on a spiritual journey and the two get a little separated from time time. I think this is all part of God’s plan for us. This is how we grow, how we get better and how we help build each other up. If we didn’t have moments of weakness, or make mistakes, or slip up, then we wouldn’t have moments of deep gratitude, boundless joy, and especially moments when we feel our Father in Heaven’s love for us so abundantly.
I think we all struggle with contentment at times, I know I do. It’s always good to be reminded that God has a lot going for us right where we are tho. Thanks for your honest post, I think your transparency will be worth all the heart-pounding you had to endure
Blessings,
Grace
Marian,
God Loves you and so do I!
Blessings sweet one,
Teresa Teague
Maybe some day we will meet when you visit NC (near Winston-Salem)
So while you are busy putting together a book that will touch a heart that needs to be touched, maybe in the lull God is directing a hungry blog reader to a blog they wouldn’t have otherwise seen. Maybe they are finding a post that speaks to their heart that day in just the way they needed to be touched. His wisdom is great and His ways a mystery. Let Him use you as He will. He won’t fail you.
That is an awesome point! Thanks so much for taking the time to share it.
You’re so sweet to share! It’s a good reminder for all of us (well, for me at least) – thanks!
Your numbers may be low now, but I’m sure they’ll jump when your book comes out and your Nate show. We all have slow times, but we need them. Sometimes, probably most often, those small times are when God speaks to us the most. Great post. I think we all needed it.
Thanks for the honesty – focus on your book, the readers will be here. All is well.
contentment come with age. It does. There is a purpose for your UN-contentment at your age right now. It gives you energy and ideas and the will to make changes. I think UN-conentment is OK in small doses. And thanks for the reminder for use to be in the NOW.
I’m 50 and the contentment started showing up a few years ago.
Marion, first – when my hydrangeas wilt like that I can usually bring them back several times by cutting off the tips and putting in fresh water. Second – after having one miscarriage then 2 babies in 2 years, I found myself wanting another baby when my 2nd was only 6 months old. I realized I really needed to work on the contentment thing myself. I considered looking for books about mothering, child rearing, large families, etc. What I ended up doing was reading the book “A Shepard’s Look at Psalm 23″ – a wonderful book. In the days that it took to read the book, God revealed so many things to me about myself and my family. Contentment just “came” when I focused on God rather than the subject at hand. What a blessing. May God continue to bless you.
Marian, it met be our human nature that it is harder for us…well, me anyway, to lean hard on God when times are tough, but lose that need to be close to him when things are going well….
You are an amazing inspiration to many and we won’t leave while you work on your other projects….
Thank you for being transparent. God can use that and I certainly appreciate honesty. We all struggle with contentment. I certainly do and God is always so gracious and merciful. Thanks for sharing your heart.
I’ll be a MMS follower for as long as I own my blog. Hang in there, keep going!!
Love your honesty in this post. We all struggle with contentment sometimes. Just remember, you didn’t get that book deal because of your # of page views and followers. You got it (and your followers) because you are amazingly talented and beautiful inside…and you are just as talented and beautiful this week as you were 3 weeks ago. So happy you’re content but your numbers will jack right back up to Jesus as soon as you dive back in!
I think it’s wonderful to read posts like this, because we can all identify with it on some level. Thank you for sharing your heart with us!
I’m an avid reader, but rarely do I come to your site or comment b/c I just read in google reader. But I wanted to say that no matter how busy you get, I will always be happy when I see a new post from you! It’s not that easy to get rid of your readers!
What an encouragement you are…even when you’re pushed to the limits and overwhelmed with the blessings you find yourself in the midst of….thanks for taking the time to share your insights. I am always blessed when I check out your blog! If you could see my living room, you’d recognize your influence…slipcovers and repurposed antiques. Be encouraged today that you have blessed so many of your fans with decorating advice and the joy that you have in what you do–and BONUS-spiritual insight. Thanks! We love you!
Sometimes I think women are so reflective and introspective that we beat ourselves up internally. Everyone has these feelings, of wanting more when we have more than enough. But, what sets many of us apart is the recognition of these feelings and the adjustment that follows, the stepping back, taking a deep breath and reevaluation. It’s okay to be reaching for the stars, just not at the expense of those we love or our own well-being. I think you have that aspect of success firmly in hand.
As for your followers, from my perspective you have a core of loyal readers like Linda above who explains what an influence your decorating style has been on her life. You have made a difference, in such a good way, to so many, and will continue to do so. That I know.
If you hold the freshly cut stems of hydrangeas in boiling water for 30 seconds, then put them in the vase with water they will last for days. Little bubbles come from the cut ends while they are in the boiling water, so not sure what is happening, but it works! You could probably try it with the wilted ones to see if you can revive them!
We are all still here – enjoying the process and cheering you on!!
Thanks for being open and honest – that’s what makes you even MORE special!!
Based on the fact that I am commenter number 2 billion….I think you still have loyal followers who love your style, wish you all the best and share your passion for God! We all want affirmation and acknowledgement and you are no different! it’s part of how God made us. Else we wouldn’t strive for ANYTHING. I don’t think it’s contentment with whatever we happen to have at the moment but rather contentment in God….realizing that He is in control and that ALL things work together for His glory. Paul wrote “for I have learned that whatever state I am in to be content” He was content knowing God was in control even though he was imprisoned BUT that didn’t stop him from writing a bazillion letters trying to help others grow in Christ. He still was striving for something, he was just content in the Lord.
You’re fine. You’re growing. Your life is changing. You are still loved by the most important one.
Lorraine (aka soapbox Suzy)
You are sooo not alone!! I think contentment is a struggle for everyone, not just bloggers!! Your book will be amazing & all of your readers will be right here waiting on you when your book is done! No fret those numbers, they WILL bounce back!
Marian, your honest introspection and willingness to be human (even when “human” isn’t pretty) tells me that you allow God to easily quicken your conscience; your heart and mind are not hardened. That’s a beautiful place to be, and I know God is using your words here (and will use your book) to minister to a hurting world. DIY is so much fun — and so very unimportant in the big picture — but it’s the fabulous avenue God has chosen for your ministry at this time in your life. Who knows what tomorrow will bring, but if your focus is on Him, it will be fantastic … blog readers out the wazoo or not. Leave it in His more than capable hands. You (and the Kingdom) will be better for having done so!
What a pertinent post for me today! Thanks for reminding-not intentionally-that we all have so much for which to be thankful. You aren’t the only one who wants a pony too!
We all struggle with contentment, but you need to realize what an inspiration and encouragement you are to so many people. I still read your blog every single day, wish you would post twice a day! Keep your chin up and march forward with what YOU need to do. Your inspiration will come through in a book or a blog, one person can only do so much.
I can only add little to the wonderful comments above, but thank you for that beautiful post straight from your heart. It seems I am never content; I read your thoughts VERY SLOWLY so that they really sunk in. I have every reason to be very happy, but I always have to add a “But…”. Thank you for telling me what I needed to hear.
Dear sweet Marian,
As a seasoned “mature” woman (I like saying that better than old lady), I have noticed through my life how we as women in particular get caught up on the “numbers” in our lives. Our age, our weight, our shoe size, our clothes size and perhaps the number of followers on our blogs. Sometimes we want those numbers to be smaller and sometimes larger but it has occured to me that these “numbers” weigh us down IF they are not what we want them to be and possible hinder us from progressing. So I have decided that I DO NOT want the “numbers” to be the victors (is that even a word). We are all in a process of progression, making oneself a better self, and through Gods love for each one of His children he provides each one of us opportunities to do just that PROGRESS. Not in “number size” but in LOVE. And with that love we can than share it with others in various means and ways. You are an extremely gifted woman. You have willingly shared your talents aka love with a boat load of people. Please don’t worry about what size the boat is, it simply just DOES NOT matter, there is room in the boat for ALL.
I’m gonna stay away from my deep feelings about your comments as they relate to your faith. I was raised in an Evangelical household and it has taken me YEARS to work beyond the sometime negative aspects of the faith. The “you are evil” part of this post makes me want to cringe and is further affirming my undying beliefs that not everything a minister says is indeed fact. Now…I will leave that there…because I know you are still heavily involved in that world and I have UBER respect for you in that regard.
Now….more importantly. I am STUNNED that your numbers have fallen??? Really??? What do people want?!! I mean, come on Marian. Your blog hasn’t suffered… It is still the wonderful inspiration filled place it has always been!!! I haven’t noticed a single bad thing…not one!!!! I love the fact that we are walking with you through this process of writing a book!!! It’s fun and awesome and inspiring and all those good things.
I am going through a bad patch with my blog at this moment and your comments only re-confirm so many of my own thoughts. I am about to hit my one year mark. There have been amazing things about this adventure…the friendships, the inspiration and the purpose it has given me. But, I gotta admit that I am completely depleted. It is ALOT of work and for me my blog has NOT grown at the rate of the majority of the gals who started at the same time. I have grinded it out on the ground day in and day out and worked my fingers to the bone!!! It’s like an animal that can’t be satiated!!! LOL I have just (in the last day) come to the realization that what started out being an inspiration to create has become an energy depleter.
I think we all get caught up in the numbers. Somewhere along the way, we get sucked in!!!! To hear that YOU are upset about this, someone I admire who has a blog I would DIE to have, I can see that no matter what I achieve with the blog…that animal will still be biting at my heels. Ugg. Perhaps we all need to LIGHTEN up a bit!!! LOL
I am reminded of something that Gloria Vanderbilt (of jeans fame) said to her now famous son, Anderson Cooper back when he was young. “Find your passion and the money will follow.” Perhaps we lose track of the passion? I don’t know…. Your bliss right now is this book….enjoy it, wallow in….bask in it. I, for one will be here reading, watching and cheering you on!!!!! Forget about those numbers…..they weren’t TRUE followers to begin with.
while my blog is quite a tiny blog by your standards i get discouraged when i look at my hits, etc. but in the end the number of people who visit my humble blog does not make up who i am. it’s hard though. i’m glad you shared this, makes you realize we are all so much alike, big or small in the blog world. keep up the good work on the book, it’ll all be worth it when you are done. enjoy the ride! susan
Thanks for sharing what’s on your heart! Sometimes I feel alone in how I feel and it’s so nice to know tha someone else is out there too, feeling the same way. I am really, really unhappy in my current job. So unhappy, that sometimes I just want to burst out into tears for no apparent reason at my desk. It’s miserable and I hate that most of my day is spend is such a negative atmosphere. I have been looking for a new job for 2 1/2 years with no luck, not even one single interview. On my hardest days, I sometimes forget that there is a reason why I’m stuck in this job and even though may not know that reason, God does. God has a purpose for my life and right now I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be in that plan. He has a plan for you too! And you shouldn’t worry about those numbers. Those that are dropping off are fair weather fans. Those that truly love your blog and truly love you are going to stick around for the long haul!
We all have those days, when we think we’re not ‘measuring up’.
Your blog is wonderful. It’s been an inspiration to very many people. There are only so many hours in a day. True Followers will understand that.
Thanks for reminding all of us, that we need to be content, with where God has placed us.
Happy Valentine’s Day.
I think that most people (it seems to be more specifically women) struggle with this. We are planners and we are always looking to the future. I think it’s incredible that you recognize those moments of reminding. I think so many people skip over it or just don’t even notice. I love that you are so open about your faith and how you live it. That is what makes what you do even more inspiring to me and keeps me coming back daily – or almost daily
– to read and see what you have made,accomplished, written, or thought. What you do and say has value beyond its beauty and that is so important! Thank you for all the inspiration and the reminders you give me to remember my own faith.
Thank you for the reminder I sorely needed about contentment. You stopped me in my tracks today and reminded me to be grateful for all I do have rather than bemoan that which I don’t. Thank you. I may only be one “click” on your blog counter, but a very grateful one; for all you share in your posts, but especially for today’s reality check. (And from now on I’ll click on the actual blog even though I read it in my reader.)
What a wonderful post! Thanks for sharing. I have to remind myself of this constantly. Particularly after seeing all of the beautifully decorated homes in blogland! But like you said, in the scheme of God’s plans, does it really matter? I am constantly on the see-saw!! Looking forward to your book. I know it’s going to be awesome!
“Be content with where I have you.” LOVE this.I think we all want more and more and don’t realize what we have.Most importantly his abundance of love.That really speaks to me today on Valentines day.When you think about it with out God there is no love.BTW still love visiting your blog even with out all the re-do projects.I am super excited about your book.You are the reason I started blogging.THANK YOU!
You are fabulous!!! I think everyone struggles with these issues, but it is the people who realize it and take a step back that are the most special of all!
I love your beautiful home and beautiful blog. I think your furniture and decorating are fabulous. But I probably would not follow your (or anyone’s) blog if I didn’t know the person behind it was not just as beautiful. (Yes that is a double negative!) I feel like we are friends, even though you do not know me (I wish you did – we would have a great time together!) So, friend, keep your chin up. It is good to learn and grow, and you will be that much happier with yourself taking this council from God. And I am not going anywhere.
Yep, I struggle with contentment too, and where does my worth come from, and who and what is more important…all that good stuff…so thank you for sharing so honestly!!!
Love
Hollie
Thank you for your words today. I personally have had a difficult week with the health of my child who has disabilities and the death of a family member, and I was feeling angry and abandoned and your words have really spoken to me…“Be content with where I have you.” Thank you for sharing your Testimony. I will now exhale and be content . ( as I PLUNDER AROUND YOUR BLOG) Sheryl
Ugh this one hit the nail on the head.! Where there is un-contentment (is that a word) I know that my pride is lurking in the bushes not to far away. We need to be reminded ALWAYS that God’s love is perfect and that He has us right where He wants. The beautiful thing is He loves us more than we love ourselves, so how can we go wrong. We can’t.
You’re certainly not alone. I struggle with contentment nearly every day. Thank you for your honesty and candor and for the stesm-cleaning photo!
Made me realize that I’m not the only one who thinks that Valentines day is a good time to clean the carpet! xo
Hello: I am an old lady….I always read your blog and look at all of your beautiful creations but something just wasn’t right. I don’t think I have ever read where you mentioned God and how thankful you were for his blessings. You seemed a lot like I used to be at your age. I wanted to unsubscribe many times but knew there had to be more to you and today I feel it, hear it, see it and love it. Write that book, Missy. I can’t wait to read it. Love, Mary
Thanks for you writings today. I have the same struggle with contentment. I have a great life and I should be more thankful. You wrote what I needed to read today.
I hope the number hasn’t dropped because I haven’t visited in a while! I’m an avid reader and consider your blog entry a bright spot to my overfull workday. I receive the email blast version because I want to read what you write, but can’t bring myself to visit every day.
I hope you also know that I’m a professional writer and editor (I’m the managing editor for The NAVTA Journal, a glossy bi-monthly for veterinary technicians) and love your posts!
Plus, I find that the ebb and flow with work tends to follow a pattern for many people at one time. Maybe God has us all a little busy, and thus the number drop may have little to do with the info in the latest blog entries (which I have really enjoyed).
Oh sweetie, we all struggle every day with contentment because we are human. But God speaks to us in so many ways and today his way was you. You are doing what you are suppose to be doing so just keep digging those heels in and see it through and enjoy the ride. Hugs to you.
Contentment: This has been on my mind so much and God keeps throwing it in my face. You probably don’t have time to read but Calm my Anxious Heart is an amazing book and it will change your life.
You can down load it to your Ipad or Kindle.
Oh for heavens same! You don’t have a wicked bone in your body! And of course, we ALL have to stop each day and say thank you for the goodness sitting right here in our laps! You’re not alone!!
Wicked and sinful heart? No, I don’t think so.
Spirit does not expect or ask us for perfection. Rather that we learn from our struggles and awareness in order to grow in heart, compassion ans wisdom so that we may share and teach others through our own healing.
These things you mention: pride in your blog’s success and gratitude for the opportunity of your book do not cancel each other out. These are both reasonable feelings about your accomplishments which are after all rooted in YOUR work with Spirit’s support and love.
Please be as compassionate with yourself as you are with all the others in your life!!!
“It makes me so sad that I have to be reminded of that in this wonderful season of my life.”
I am thankful that we are able to hear His gentle reminders and I’m always humbled that He loves us so much that He does remind us. Know what I mean?
You’re awesome and I really enjoy how He uses you to show His mercies!
Needed to hear this today! Thank you for sharing that. I am struggling with waiting on God’s timing and seriously needed to be reminded to be content in where he has me right now. You are so brave to share these things. And God is using you to touch others! Thank you!
I can see your maturation in both decorating and your Christian life. You have become the go-to person in both areas of life, which is exactly what you should be. How wonderful how God has used you. I am sure your thoughts on spiritual things have helped many a person in this weary life we lead. I pray that you will continue to follow God and His leading. You rock!
Reading your blog was a good reminder for me, too. I own a used bookstore and I find that sometimes along the way I’m having to remind myself about my blessings and the gift I have. Yes, it can be hard to own, run and be all to a store but really, it’s a used bookstore. The rules are what I place on myself and there are no rules in a used bookstore. Enjoy it. And you enjoy your journey. I look forwatd to reading your blog and the connection I have with you and others who also share their life. You have helped me to awaken my creativity and for that I’m grateful. Keep up the great work and I look forward to your book. New. I won’t wait for a used copy to come through my door.
Wow this post was meant for me today. We were able to build a home, but we don’t live there yet, and I have to “decorate” in my mind from 3000 miles away, and I am whining it about it all the time. “My garage is full”, “Why can’t we just be home”, “Why? why? why?”….Where has the grateful spirit been…God provided us with the ability to build a home for our family!!! Thank you so much for reminding me of how much I have to be grateful for…not just a home, but a beautiful family and the list goes on. So I am going to remind myself to count my blessings each and every day…Thanks, Lori
Aw, friend, we all struggle with this stuff. It’s the journey I found myself on during the Fall. And when I gave up and gave it over to Him, somehow numbers began to rise again. And I’m trying to remember that they are not the important part. My ability to give Him every glory–and not myself–that’s the important part. Through highs and lows. Love that you’re searching…and love that you’re honest. Love you, friend.
shaunna
Worrying about your blog numbers is not a sin on your part. You have a pure heart. You just want to do a really good job in every part of your life. I don’t think you could commit a sin even if you had a gun in your hand. You are just feeling stress about your book and some winter seasonal affective disorder,(SAD) We are all loyal fans. I may have not clicked on your post when I saw it was a “Best of MMS” because I have read them all, several times, and studied every picture. Your numbers will sky rocket after your Nate Show appearance airs. You forgot about that didn’t you? Mr Goodwill Hunting has 70,000 followers on Pinterest and he has hardly any pins. Take some B vitamins every day. A lot of them. One of your biggest supporters, Ann (nut bird)
You are a jewel! I often pray to quiet my flesh of the many things “I have to get done”, “I would like to have/start/find/do”, “If I could just ….” My favorite verse “Be still and know I am God” is my precious reminder that truly I AM content where I am right now and with that comes the joy of knowing I am right where God has me for His purpose and pleasure. You’re so right, THAT is what matters! Love you to pieces!
Ahhh Marian,
Being transparent is scary because you are revealing the depths of your soul. My little blog contains some very personal things. I understand because when I write them, I feel fear too. Contentment, I think, goes hand-in-hand with balance. I think about what Job said, “the Lord giveth and the Lord taketh away. Blessed be the name of the Lord.” He gives because He loves us so much. He takes away to remind us that He is in control.
Of course, you wrote what I claim every morning before my feet hit the floor. I claim His grace and His mercy. When you are in the palm of His hand that is the safest place of all! I will pray for you.
Blessings,
Melodye
I’m so grateful for your post and your honesty. Thank you so much. I seem to always be in need of a reminder
There is nothing more beautiful than the written “faith words” of a inspired woman of God. You lifted me up today. Thank you.
You are definetly not alone!! I struggle with contentment sometimes too. Anyone who says they dont I would be so bold as to say they are lying! It’s hard sometimes but I am so glad that God helped you see what He had given and you found gratitude. So wonderful. Thanks for sharing!
Feeling content is a daily struggle for me, as is feeling wicked… it’s so hard to feel good about yourself when you feel so evil… your post made me tear, I feel more human when I know others, no matter at what level of “success”, feels the same way I do. But read all the comments before mine, obviously you are loved, and obviously so many of your readers also love God, so obviously you are on the right track for your life!
Love and prayers, Leanne
This post couldn’t have come at a better time! Thank you for sharing…I owned my own Scrapbooking retail businesss for 10 years, (sad and one of the hardest things I had to do ) I sold it due to economy, back into the “Corporate world” struggling with that! Not what I had planned for my future, I needed a creative outlet and then fell upon blogging, I know God is the one who lead me in to this…now I hope and pray I can do this full-time there’s nothing like doing what you love…I have been in the fast lane here working full time, running home, spend time with family , create , get post together….thinking I need to do more….now after reading this and others comments.Thank you! …I now know I need to be more content with what I have now and slow down…and let God’s plans direct me and provide when HE thinks the time is right.. I get your emails and enjoy each and everyone of them.!
We all struggle with that – it’s the human condition. Seems to me you’re doing fine with it. It’s hard to remember when we’re rushing around like maniacs trying to get things done or solve problems, but when there is a space to breathe most of us realize how lucky we are.
This is very interesting…
I read your every post….
Once, on a Furniture Feature Friday, you spoke of a person not having very many followers, and you asked your readers to hop on over and show the person some love…It was one of your chosen favorites for the week before….
I was surprised….and ??? about it being important to have followers….
I have a blog….
I never KnEw to blog for numbers…
I blogged for me…
Until I found all of the absolutely, breathtaking, fabulous, tremendous, DIY blogs out there in blog world.
I started feeling unworthy…even though I KnEw better!
We all have moments of wanting more… We are human and it is a very human thing. Might not be such a bad thing either, depending on one’s perspective… it is wanting more that gets us in gear sometimes. The thing that is important is BaLaNcE….
I also think it is a very blessed thing to be able to stop and recognize, where ever one is in one’s life, is right where that person should be….You did that… Recognize it and give yourself a break…You are wonderful, right this very minute and you will be fine, just fine. Your blog is my favorite because of you. I have not commented to let you know…. Now I have… Happy Valentine’s Day!
I am so excited to ready “your” story! I do believe that many times, things like a slight decrease of numbers on our blogs, or a feeling that we are losing our readers, that is a distraction from the ENEMY so that you will miss the blessing you are experiencing. Don’t miss it…..savor it. Your blog will rebound and I believe, even stronger than before. Praying for you and believing Gods plans are way bigger than our dreams. Love, Me (Rebecca @youaretalkingtoomuch.com)
Nope, you’re not the only one that struggles with contentment! I think we all do, and that it is probably something that we will always struggle with, its part of being human. Isn’t it great to know that our Heavenly Father can help us with it? I am glad that His mercies are new everyday, so that everyday I have a chance to do better. Don’t worry about the numbers, if someone has checked out because you are wrighting a book instead of the blog, well I guess you could call them a fair weather follower, and don’t worry about it!
Struggle daily with contentment…apparently so did Eve and she had everything except one lousy fruit so I think it’s safe to say women are just gonna have this battle. Best thing I ever heard was that of the 7 deadly sins, contentment is the only one that really has no enjoyment! So might as well pick one that’s more fun.
You are absolutely right!! Thank you for the reminder…
Realizing that we need to be content is the first step. So many hurting, less fortunate people out there cause me to feel guilty for my many blessings. So I’ve slowly learned to let go and give more of things, time, money and love. And doing it privately is the best blessing. Looking forward to your book. And did I spot you on tv at a Joyce Meyer conference? If not, It was a twin. LOL
Nope! It must’ve been the twin!
I think almost everyone forgets to realize to be content sometimes. I know I do at times. I should be content all the time I have wonderful husband, two beautiful puppies and I write my blog evey day but I want it take off so badly because I think I have talent I forget to feel good about all I have.
I just found your blog through Pinterest and was wondering if you could add me to your e-mail base? I’d love to follow you! Loved your post and interested to read your book.
Pastor’s Wife in Kansas
Just type your e-mail in the subscribe box on my side bar. You’ll get a confirmtation e-mail and then you’ll start getting my posts delivered to you e-mail inbox. I always love “meeting” another pastor’s wife.
We all need reminders every now and then – thank you!! Have a wonderful day – enjoy writing and creating your book.
After reading some of the reply’s to your heart felt blog this morning, I realized how important you are to a lot of us. Not only do you share your talents, but yourself also. Not all of us have positive people in our lives, so reading about your life, passion for re-doing instead of always buying new, and last but not least your love of God may be the only voice of God they hear. Keep up your ministry MMS, our Heavenly Father has done all of this to show others how He loves you. We have the hope we also can be children of God, when we yield our lives to Him as you have. May God bless you and your family.
You are not alone, my sister. This is something we all struggle with. At least you realize it and can change your mind, which changes your heart and in turn changes your attitude. Choices we make in what we think and allow our mind to entertain is up to us. God is still on the throne and prayer changes things. Don’t worry about being transparent you never know who you will minister to.
Thank you for your honesty. I suffer from discontent a lot. I find myself wanting whatever it is…but the other day I got to thinking that I have always been provided for…ALWAYS! I just blogged about it yesterday. The thing is that your numbers may go down for a while, but think of all the new viewers that will discover you after they read your book! Hang in there, we all love you and your blog…we will be here for when you are done with the book. Keep your head up, you’re great!
Please, don’t be so hard on yourself! Remember “celebrate”
I always look forward to reading your blog! I wonder how you do it all! Don’t be so hard on yourself…you do so much!!! We all love you and will be looking forward to your book!!! Thank you for your beautiful blog and all that you give. Happy Valentines Day!!!
Well yeah, contentment. Is anyone really ever content with what they have or where they are in life?
Have fun with your book, Marian.
I try, but I fail badly.
Could you put Mini in a giveaway? I could sooo use a Mini!!!
“a word fitly spoken is like apples of gold in pictures of silver.” Thanking God for giving you the fitly words that has spoken right to our hearts. May He grant you the continued wisdom to hear His voice in all the worldly turmoil of important numbers and business. Much love and hugs. Jan
Write on and decorate on. What a worthy calling!
PS. That Proverbs verse reminds me that God too is filled with joy in beauty and detail. Just makes me smile.
I don’t think anything you’ve said points out the wickedness and sinful nature of your heart. I do think it shows you are human. There are times when we are all tempted to think that way. That’s the time to remember how blessed we are and to take a look at where we started and how far we’ve come. I think it is wonderful to feel contentment, but sometimes if we become too contented, we become complacent and don’t reach for the next step. I think God has plans for you to keep moving forward.
I read your blog faithfully and love everything you post, but don’t usually come over and comment. Call me lazy. But today as I read your words I knew I had to tell you how much I appreciate your honesty in this post. I so feel you on this one, and it did me good to be reminded that I need to be content- and grateful- for where I am right this moment. Thanks for that. And I can’t wait for the book! Hugs!
Amen sister to the first part!
Oh man! That’s poopy for the second part.
And a YES for clean carpet for the last!
Ps- I check you everyday just to see what’s up!:) Love your past project revisited blogs.
Thank you for be so transparent and true! You are doing “Amazing” and very inspiring. Can’t wait for your book! I am following your blog for a while now. I am doing my DIY repouposed vintage and antiques furniture and beside my experience I learned a lot from you too. I dont have my blog yet… I am thinking about it so that I will be able to share my creations with all of you. I need to find the perfect name for it!!! I just want to thank you and wish you the best. There is nothing more beautiful than do what you love. Many blessings.
I don’t think you should feel embarrassed to share posts like this, Marian! Honesty, transparency, even insecurities… these are exactly the types of things we SHOULD share with one another! We women are much too hard on ourselves these days. We feel we have to be perfect housekeepers, career women, mothers, wives… the list goes on! It’s so hard to feel content with where we are (and how we’re doing!) sometimes… you are certainly NOT alone, friend. <3 Thank YOU for this reminder!
And, for the record, I'm still here – every day!
I am a new follower- actually new to the whole blog world. I know, sad! Anyway, I have already fallen In love with your blog, but after reading today’s post- I’ve fallen in love with you! Ok, in a loving, girly, Godly way- lol. Thank you for keeping it real. You are truly an inspiration. Good luck with your book. I can’t wait to read it!!
Well Marion,
While I must say that I do miss reading new posts here on an almost daily basis, your involvement in your current project is giving me time to get back through some of your older posts I may have missed.
I’ve been following for several months but I’m sure that I’ve missed some great stuff.
It’s good of you to give us all the time to get some review in.
Plus, how could we complain! Look at all the things you have accomplished! Look at all the inspiration you provide us with! Look what you’re doing for us! You’re writing us a book!
You take all the time you need. And when you are done and ready to come back to us in a greater capacity, I for one, will still be here. You can count on that!
Hugs!
Karen
You are so not alone! I struggle with contentment and hate that God has to remind me of such simple things. I am so thankful for His grace and mercy! You are doing a fabulous job keeping up with the blog! I havent been following you long and I appreciate how open you are! And that you talk about your dependence on the Lord! You go girl!
I’m a newer follower and I never comment but I just had to say thank you for this post. I’m so glad you showed us how God is working in your life, and the humbleness and transparency you showed was inspiring. I so needed to hear this today. And from all the comments you’ve gotten, it looks like we all struggle with contentment! I will definitely continue reading your blog and I can’t wait to get your new book! May God continue to bless you and your ministry!
I truly feel that God is working in all you do. First, it’s not everyday, that fellow believers can reach, and share the truth about how God is working in their lives to perhaps those that don’t know Him. What a testimony ! You are an inspiration to many many people. It’s hard to put our self worth in things of this earth, when we know we should be storing up riches in heaven. We are human, and as such are fallen. YET, As you do, sharing, giving, helping, loving others, in a way that we only know how, threw our passion for creative design. God gave you this talent, and you are using it! I’m sure He is proud. Don’t give up Miss Mustard seed! It takes the faith of a mustard seed!!!!!!
So many of us find ourselves in your position. You are human. Yes we are all wicked, but thank you Jesus for taking care of that for us.
I too am in this position. I have been waiting for my house to sell in St. Louis, so I can move to a farm in Findlay Ohio by my daughter. It is a lovely, quaint, snall city and I love it there. But I am not content where I am for now, i want God to hurry up and do what I want. I struggle everyday to be content where I am and learn what god is showing me as I struggle and wait in anticipation for what He has in store for me. You, yourself reinforced that thought , that God has so much more for us than we could ever orchestrate on our own. Love yourself and your amazing accomplishments as God propels you into a new level of faith and inspiration for others to see.
wow…same conversation I’ve been having….new stages of life spark reevaluation and even our mistakes can work out for good with God’s help.
I too struggle with being content. We are hosting ‘Life Groups’ for our church starting in 3 weeks and I’m going crazy trying to make everything perfect. I’m looking at my falling apart, yet only a few years old furniture and wanting to rush out and buy new stuff before anyone comes over and sees it. In my Beth Moore Study the exercise was to divide your age into quarters and write down all the gifts God has given you in those quarters of your life. Writing down Gods gifts even during some of the hardest parts of my life was a real eye opener! He is amazing and reflecting on all the gifts He has given me makes me want to work on being content with what I have.
You came thru very real and clear. I respect that. We all struggle with feelings of discontent, and I, for one, was glad for the reminder! Thanks. I am so excited about your book opportunity! What a blessing to be reminded to enjoy the ride!!
Just wanted to leave a note and say thanks for showing your weaknesses. As humans, although made in HIS image…we are NOT anywhere near where we want to be. We fall and hopefully get up. We are disappointed and become stronger or find another direction. Sometimes, as for me, we watch our children suffer and forget how to give it to God. Myself and our three girls have difficult medical conditions. Some days the well intentioned “He only gives you what you can handle”….well it just makes me want to cry. Do I question his purpose at times? ABSOLUTELY! But I never lose sight of His plan and that we as a family have changed and learned to look at the world differently. Our family….our girls are more compassionate, caring people. Hang in there and know that you are where you are supposed to be! I love your posts. Give it to God(but don’t forget to let go:)
What a wonderful post! Those blog stats don’t define you; what you lose in blog numbers, you’ll more than make up for with the best seller you’re working on!!
Patience is a virtue and perhaps this is a lesson you’re to teach your blog followers.
I’ve always struggled with finding a balance between being happy with where I am and pushing myself to be better and do more. And yes, it is a balancing act. If you never reached for higher blog stats, you never would have gotten the book deal. So… it’s a balance and maybe it’s just me but when I’m a little off balance is when I am closer to God and learning the most about myself. I actually think you’re in a beautiful place. And honestly, it’s a place I really envy.
Oh… envy…. speaking of our own sins…. There’s mine.
You are a wonderful person.To share so much with people you have never met,and to be so encouraging is a gift that the good Lord has blessed you with. Did you know that hydrangias(sp)love water,place them completely covered in water,they will bounce back.
I had the florist do this for my niece’s wedding. Large glass vase filled with water and the flowers totally imersed .Plus it looks so pretty
I’m so glad you’re my friend, Marian.
When you’re done writing that (amazing) book- why don’tcha just come on down here and move in to the house next door. I’d really like to hug your neck more than once a year.
XOXOXOXO
First, thank you as always for your honesty with us. I think it’s so important for all of us to realize that none of us are perfect! I think women are particularly hard on themselves and we always feel we should be better, can be better, should be doing more etc. Instead of beating yourself up, congratulate yourself for being one of the few that saw the sign and listened!
Alright, enough of the sappy stuff, I’m off to go pin a picture of that carpet…LOL
Godliness with CONTENTMENT is great gain! 1 Timothy 6:6-8. We have to remind ourselves that great stuff like that is in the Word for a reason, because it is TRUTH. I think it is pretty darn awesome that your transparency alone will bring God the Glory and you will fulfill your purposes too! You got a pretty cool thing going on Marian!
I struggle with contentment and consider myself a very happy person. I try to be grateful and recognize everyday what God has given me and not worry about what I don’t have, but being content and finding contentment does not come naturally and requires a mindset that is worth working for. I applaud you for addressing it so openly and beautifully. I read your blog almost everyday and wouldn’t leave you for a minute even if you are writing a book! Rock on! …and I am still loving you wearing your chucks while you were in New York!! That picture made my day!!! Thanks, thanks, and many thanks!
I am still praying for you as you write that His words may shine through you!
I DO know what you mean about being ungrateful, and I wrote about it, too!
http://www.goodbyehousehellohome.com/2010/11/ungrateful.html
Keep remembering His mercies. Every moment!
HUGS and blessings,
~Leslie
You are not alone, and thanks for being honest about it. BTW, your last photo caption cracked me up!
I get it. I soooo get it.
I’m quickly learning you simply can’t be in 2 ( or 3 or 4 or 5) places at once.
Thank you for this insight today. It’s something I really needed to hear.
Donna
so I had just posted about my obsession with numbers, followers and “fame” lol I still don’t even have 500 followers and I have no book deal. I know contentment comes from God and his peace and trust in his plan. Even if I had 8,000 followers I would not be content without him. Thanks for your great honesty. Have fun- so much fun- writing your book, it is a blessing!!
You are too hard on yourself!!
I’m excited for the book to come out, you are an amazing person, keep working hard, we will always be here for you!
XO
Kristin
Yes, sometimes I forget to be grateful and content with my blessings. I agree that we have different seasons to our lives and that we should enjoy them each in turn. It isn’t always easy to do so but I think it makes our lives richer and allows us to connect at a much deeper level.
I am happy to read whatever you post, whenever you can. I’m looking forward to your book.
I just found your blog today when someone linked to contentment. What have I been missing all this time?? I think I’ll stick around and browse a bit. Thanks for a great post and for being honest!
Your post is so timely. My comment is more of a question/food for thought, as I read so many comments from wonderful women who know God. Certainly I, too, struggle with contentment from time to time, but I have learned that peace and contentment come as a result of trusting God. But I also struggle to understand the real, day-to-day situations, such as job losses, that some have written about. These are situations that have very direct and dire, albeit human, consequences. Learning to be content while facing these situations, when they are perhaps even facing bankruptcy or foreclosure, or homelessness, is a difficult lesson, particularly when there are others who seem to have all the material things and far more than others can imagine. What makes a homeless person homeless? or have to file for bankruptcy? Is that God’s will, or the result of choices they have made? Being content in their homelessness would be pretty hard to do, so what is the best way to help these people to find contentment? Paul had nothing material after prison, yet he felt content. Could God have bankruptcy in some people’s lives to teach them important lessons while allowing others to have material wealth beyond other people’s dreams?
Thank you for giving this important topic room to breath and reach so many of us.
Love your blog, love watching you grow, can’t wait to see your book unfold and open the next stage in your life.
I am inspired each time I check out your blog and appreciate you sharing not only your talents but your life as well. We are human and that only emphasizes our need to rely on God in all things. You are doing that and I know He will bless you in your endeavors. Can’t wait for your book!
You are not alone. I need this post…I struggle too often with being content.
Oh Miss Mustard Seed, your post is a breath of fresh air! An encouragement to me to do the things that our Heavenly Father has called for me to do! I have been struggling with contentment lately as well. So much so, that I am going off of Pinterest today. I have found that as I look at all the photos and ideas on there, it pulls me down the path of thinking that I’m not good enough…that everyone else is doing everything so much better than me. Not that it’s Pinterest’s fault, merely just a hook that the enemy has caught me with. Any way, enough about my discontentment!
KEEP GOING DOWN THE PATH THE LORD HAS SET BEFORE YOU, NOT LOOKING TO THE LEFT OR RIGHT! It WILL be worth it in the end!
Love from your sister in the Lord!
Marion, you need not worry about your followers on your blog. I still pull it up almost everyday, sometimes I drive down to my daughter’s apt. to help her with wedding stuff. Like today, I just started going thru my saved blogs. I wish you only the best with your book, can’t wait to buy it. Oh, and you are the one that introduced me to ASCP! I love it. I’m having a hard time finishing one big project without starting others.
I sincerely love it that you and I think, all the bloggers I read are so forthright with their Faith in the Lord! I feel a connection with so many lovely Christian women. I like your new picture. Blessings, Paula Lusk
Wonderful post! Lady give yourself a break. You truly have a ministry through your words and thoughts. Thanks for sharing so much of yourself, but remember to take care of you first.
Light and Love, Robin
I am so thankful that you poured your heart out in that post! I love your blog and love the sprinkled in seeds and reminders that you post to remind us we’re all human. I so needed to hear that “be content where I have you today” as I am constantly frustrated with what I am doing right now and wonder what I am “supposed to be doing” ….be content where I have you ………got it! I’m obviously not done learning something here yet! Thanks for being you
I love this post.
You have so much going on right now. Such great, wonderful, dream come true things! So glad to see you looking to God and giving him the glory.
Just *happened*???
on your blog today. THANK YOU for your honesty and sharing! I love watching the unexpected ways that God works in each of us.
Marian, there’s not a wicked bone in your body. You are just trying to be everything to everyone right now. I so admire that you are writing a book and blogging at all. I think I would feel completely overwhelmed. Don’t worry about your numbers even if they do go down some. As soon as you’re done with your book, they will rebound and be way higher than ever! You just wait…you’ll see!
HUGS,
Susan
Hi – I have a great fix for wilted hydrangeas! Re-cut the stems at a steep angle and immediately place them into the boiling water for 30 seconds. This helps the stem to open up and get whatever sap etc is blocking the water from hydrating. Your hydrangeas should re-hydrate in about 12-24 hours – seriously – they come back to life! Hope that helps!
I just want to say when I was trying to log on to your blog last week I kept getting a message that it was unavailable and something about it “exceeding band width” whatever that means. Is it possible that is why your numbers were down?
I’ve been away from blogging myself for about three months, and as I’ve meandered back around, I was so inspired to read this post. I had no idea you were writing a book, but I’d love to know more about it. This post spoke to my heart about contentment. I’ve been struggling with a lot of life changes lately, and it’s really helped me to reevaluate my relationship with the Lord and distinguish between my needs and wants. Some of what I thought was so important…like keeping up constantly with my blog, decorating, playing “show and tell”….it was leaving me feeling, well…empty. All of those things are good and fun in and of themselves, but if we let it become the “most important thing” in our lives, we’ll never be satisfied. At least that’s what I’m finding in this season of my life. Blessings to you as you rest in Him and His marvelous will for your life.
In Him,
Karen
Hello, I stumbled upon your site after being at The Graphics Fairy. Your post really hit home and brought tears to my eyes. I was humbled right away…and that’s just what I needed. I can tell you are just a precious woman of God….Thank you for serving Him, because in doing so, you served me tonight.
Blessings,
Annie