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His ways are higher…


I had a plan for my life and it changed.  There was a time when my dream was to be a professional stage actress.

(Yep, that’s me.)

It was more than a dream; it was a goal I worked hard towards for many years.  I even got my degree in musical theatre.  But there came a point in my life when I realized I loved the stage, but I didn’t love the lifestyle that came with it.  It meant traveling and going from one job to the next and always auditioning and rejection and long reherasals and late night performances.  I knew it wasn’t what God had for my life, so I put it on a shelf.

Last week, I went to New York to film a segment for The Nate Berkus Show.  (I don’t know when it’s airing, yet, but I’ll let you know when I find out.)  It was an exciting trip and I’ll share all of the details down the road…


…but it was also a defining moment for me personally.  There I was in New York City, in a dressing room with my name on it.  In a way, it was what I had always dreamed about, except it was totally different and so much better.  I was enjoying the “I’ve made it” energy in New York City, but it wasn’t as a starving artist.  It was as a stay-at-home youth pastor’s wife and mom who started a business out of necessity and a love of decorating.  It was hand-in-hand with my husband through Central Park to watch a Broadway show from the second row and celebrate all of the amazing things that have happened in the last couple of years.  A book deal, magazine features, a TV show appearance and an awesome retail space…  It’s overwhelming and humbling.

I’m not saying all of this to say, “Oh, I’m so great, look at me and all I did.”  I want to share it because you may have had a plan for your life and it had to go on a shelf and God may have something for you that is so much better.  I don’t know what that is, but I do know one thing for certain…

…His ways are higher than ours.

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  1. Wow – and to think… I almost didn’t read this blog post. I really needed to hear this and be reminded of the wisdom of God’s plan for us. Not just me, but look at the number of comments and the lives you touched with this post!

  2. Ooooo!!!! My soul is singing great choruses of happiness for you!!! And what a great reminder. So needed. Thank you!!

  3. It is truly joyful when you feel that you are exactly where God wants you to be…through ALL of the ups and downs, fame and doing dishes, and the twists and turns of every day. As long as you keep your focus on God and others, He can do even greater things through you. Congratulations on all of these blessings and experiences, and for encouraging so many who may feel at a loss as to their “place” in life.

    On a side note, I remember “arguing” with God when I had just begun studying for a degree in interior design, and just felt led to pursue a degree in Music Ministry. I remember thinking, “Fine God (yeah I was 19!), but you better let me know what in the world I’m going to do with THAT when I’m done!” You know happened??? I became pregnant my last semester of college, and became a mommy Sept. 8th, 2005! God really has a sense of humor sometimes. :-) And now I get to enjoy a bit of both, all while being a stay at home mom…’s the best! (Although I wouldn’t mind a housekeeper!)

  4. Anonymous says:

    I have to admit that I burst into tears when I read this posting on your blog — but maybe that’s what I get for reading blogs at work? (I was on lunch break, though.) It hit so close to home: my heart has been so heavy & broken the last 3-1/2 years since I had a miscarriage. Have not been able to even get pregnant since. Now due to health challenges (both hubby & me) and overwhelming financial difficulties, this past year I have seen the dream of children fade away as we are now getting older, and also two ideas for my own business have also seeming died as my health now dictates certain choices. I just don’t know what God wants me to do…where He is leading, which is difficult to admit when you are nearing 42. I feel like I don’t have a purpose — I am desperate for hope, longing for purpose and a career/business/craft that I enjoy & can be successful at, and most of all, still deeply desire children of my own.

    • I felt really really lost too, and some things that are good come out where you least expect them to. It is always good to try new things, you never know what is around the corner. I hope you feel better soon.

  5. Hi. I’ve been reading you blog for a while now. I too wanted so much to be an actress, and I went to theatre school as well. Then reality hit and I realized I didn’t really enjoy waiting tables and the whole theatre lifestyle. I didn’t last long- over the course of a year or two I went on 50 auditions and never really got cast in anything. It was hard to let the dream go because because I felt it was hard to move on without really achieving some form of “success.” But now I have found something so much better suited to my personality. I am in grad school to become a special education teacher – something that gives me so much purpose and exciting challenges. Thank you for sharing your story – it is nice to hear of others like me. One day I may take theatre off the shelf again, but for now I am pretty happy doing something different.

  6. Julie says:

    I wish we all realized that!! PRAISE GOD, in good times and in bad. I look forward to your segment on NATE.

  7. Thank you for sharing that encouragement!!!

  8. Thank you for this post, it really spoke to me as I am trying to figure out what I am suppose to be doing, and where I belong besides at home with my babies! blessings and congrats on all your success, it is very inspiring!

  9. Hi dear friend,

    I have been so encouraged and blessed by your blog/website for months now! I have never written, but after this post, I decided that the time had come for me to say “hi”. Your blog has been such a joy for me. Ever since I stumbled upon it I have admired your style, ingenuity and love for creating beauty out of junk. I also feel a wonderful kinship with you as a fellow follower of Christ. I too am a stay-at-home mom with 4 wonderful sons and a sweet husband who encourages me in my attempts at beautifying our home. Thank you so much for sharing so selflessly. Most people with your talent would hoard it and you are lavish with help and ideas afresh! Thank you dear friend~
    “Only one life will soon be past…only what’s done for Christ will last….”CT Studd
    Warmly, Cass

  10. Elizabeth Maxson says:

    We have never met, but I had to leave comment on this post. I, too, have a degree in theatre and worked as an actress and director in Europe and pursued that life as well. But God had different plans for me as well. I had a moment like you last year, while in NYC, my friend had a reading of his play and asked that I read a part for his workshop, off Broadway, and there I was, on my birthday, celebrating, doing a book signing, and celebrating his accomplishments as well. And now, actually reading a part in a play he wrote, and yes, technically it was off-broadway, but it was better than I could have ever planned for myself. The path God carved out for me led me to that moment and I will cherish it. No star on a door for me, but rather a little meteorite shower for me the last 20 years as I make my way through my creative endeavors with my Creator right next to me.

    Thanks for sharing all of your talents and letting us know who is leading the way :-)
    Big hug

  11. Meredith Molstre says:

    Marian, thats an awesome story! So cool to see where God has taken you and your family over the past couple years! Today I just “rediscovered” your website, and I love reading EVERYTHING you post! Its super-fun to gather ideas from you now that I have my own little home to decorate! Your words are a huge encouragement to me :) And the Nate show! WOW! It is so fun to read about your home and the spiritual lessons you have to share. Thanks!

  12. Dalila says:

    Marian, I found your blog about 6 months ago and got hooked right away! I would read old posts while nursing my third baby. You have helped inspired me to find an outlet for my crafty/creative side, I am pushing past my fears and starting a business. Thank you for sharing your journey, congratulations for all of your success and may you continue to be blessed with things to celebrate in 2012:)

  13. You are an amazing, very inspiring woman with a lot of faith and perspective. Thanks for your thoughts.

  14. I love your story and how you followed God’s plan for your life and ultimately, how God has blessed you!! My oldest daughter, of four children, also has a love for musical theatre and a God given voice. She attended a high school that put on amazing musical productions and she had leads all through her high school years in those productions. She too has recently reconsidered taking a similar path that you had once anticipated and for the exact same reasons; travel, being away from home even on holidays, auditions, rejections, crazy hours for rehearsals and performances, etc. She also has come to the conclusion that God has something else planned for her life. She had taken a year between high school and college to pursuit this when she came to this conclusion. She is now a freshmen in college and pursuing a degree, but she is still seeking God on exactly what this degree should be and hopes, very strongly, to become a wife and mother some day, as well. I will definitely pass your story on to her. Thanks so much for sharing it! God bless you and your family, Tina

  15. Connie Payson says:

    Thanks for inspiring us daily, challenging us, and glorify God in all that we do. Celebrate, Marion!

  16. wonderful post! made me almost cry.

  17. LindaMc says:

    Congrats on your segment with Nate – saw it today (taped from yesterday). It was short & sweet but it WAS–that’s what’s important — your time of celebration. Thanks for the work you do and your inspiration — it was like a little part of all of us was there. P. S. I did hope they would at least put your blog name on the screen as they have with some others — didn’t see it though.

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