I remember when I first started a blog and I would read all about the exciting things that were happening to other bloggers. I never even knew that magazine features and freelance writing jobs and TV shows and book deals and things like that could happen to ordinary stay-at-home moms like myself who shared their passions on a blog. Once I saw that, my dreams (which started out as just wanting to make a little money to contribute to the family budget) got much bigger.
I went from excitement over all of the possibilities to feeling like amazing things were happening to everyone but me. (It’s easy to feel like that in the blog world at times. I’m sure I’m not alone.) A fellow blogger would share some exciting news and, while I was genuinely happy for her, there was a twinge. That twinge. The “why not me” twinge. I hate those twinges, because they’re bringing something out in me that I wish wasn’t there. A little insecurity, maybe some envy. As I got myself all tied in knots about “why not me”, I was totally missing something very important: I wasn’t ready.
If some big opportunity had fallen in my lap a couple of years ago, I wouldn’t have been ready for it. I needed time to grow. Time to refine my style, to become a better photographer and writer and to learn lessons about being the president of my own company. I needed to experience triumphant successes and epic failures. Looking back, I can’t believe that HGTV.com and Cottages & Bungalows asked me to write for them. ME…someone with no professional writing, photography or design experience! I have truly been doing it all by the seat of my pants and I’m so thankful they took a chance on me and gave me time to sharpen my skills. I know I still have a ton of room to grow in more areas than I can name, but I feel better prepared for the most exciting opportunity received in my e-mail inbox to date. (I’ll tell you all about it when I can.) I now see that waiting has been an important part of the process and I’m glad for it.
So, if you’re feeling “that twinge” and impatient and a little insecure, just remember that there’s a time for everything and this may be your time to grow.